My name is Janelle and I am afraid.
I fear that when I graduate I will get a "normal" 8-4 job in the public sector, work my butt off for a measly salary all whilst listening to a boss who is not far from being a fossil. Not to mention I will be forced to submit myself to having to wake up at some ungodly hour to beat the morning traffic because naturally, I live on the curb of the creator's back.
I am afraid that I will be miserable.
I am afraid that after about 2 years of working in this deadbeat job that everyone is telling me I should be thankful for because "the economy isn't too good right now", I will decide it's time to get my Masters Degree. Now, seeing that I want to keep this job that excites every bone in my body, this degree will be done in the comfort of my home country- another fear of what would then be considered the "younger self". Seeing that I am an attractive young lady with a stable job and "ambition", I suspect that there would be a myriad of suitors at my doorstep... or at least one. I would then accept his proposal for marriage because well... some help with the bills would be nice and you know, I'm human and though some may say that I have a conscience of concrete, I have that dumb desire for companionship.
I will have that wedding, we will purchase a house together, have two or perhaps three children and eventually the sex will be routine where orgasms become a feature of the past. I will fill the gaps in my life by going to church whilst simultaneously reading future versions of "Fifty Shades" hoping that an imaginary Christian Grey sweeps me off my feet... feet which are of course, in dire need of exfoliating.
I am afraid that I will settle.
My name is Janelle and what you've just read is my greatest fear.
... but I am a poet and whilst I may not give my work sufficient credit, many say I'm quite good at it.
I am a writer.
I am one of those crazy tree hugging green people who you think might be related to alien but you respect nonetheless because they have passion.
I am a vegan (a gluten free one for the moment).
I am a feminist.
I am a yogini.
I am a conscious being
I am a square peg in society's round hole.
I am too much but just enough.
I have dreams to travel the world and be successful... and happy.
I do not want to graduate and join the rat race.
So, what's a girl to do?
If I'm so determined not to be a part of the masses, I need to sell myself... not my soul.
I need to tap into my resources and harness my creative energies so that I can be that person I want to be... the person I need to be.
Life in the Entreposphere will take you through my journey as I toy with this idea of entrepreneurship.
I will be looking at the skills I need to be a successful entrepreneur, funding available for what may be my future self, words of wisdom from those who refused to conform to the 8-4 gig that most people grab for and lots more.
Join me on my journey!
My name is Janelle and I refuse to let my fears become my reality.
